Semi Conscious State

Another day and another collection of words from my thoughts. Here is how those words came out..

I have not done any writing for a while now, apart for some articles that I write for some websites and I have started my new project which is an inspirational book. All the Poems or Lyrics however (what ever you want to call them ) that I have posted so far have been written in the past.

So I thought I would sit down and write a new piece. So this one is fresh, straight from my head. I hope you like it.

Semi Conscious State

If this is my fate then I will not accept it
If this is my place in society
If truth be known you would not choose it
Our life has a place for all to see
But what about me
With my hopeless fear

I try my best but cannot avoid it
Calling me from beyond his home
I try my best like no one knows how
falling for him with definite hast
I hide my face in a crowded disgrace

With out the power that he beholds
I am a shadow of my own mistakes
Crying out for his help, only he can fake
Knowing as I accept once again
I will dive beyond my last depth in shame

I try my best but cannot avoid him
Always calling me as I roam
I try my best like no one knows
He can never leave me alone
How do I change my face
How do I escape this chase

Torment and pain is his only game
As I befriend him all but once again
My heart beats louder and harder
Because I love him to much
But how can I complain
When he feeds my sorry shame

I try my best will I ever be free
Away from his chanting, taunting me
Tomorrow is not my party
My grief caused by him and me
I tried and know one ever knew
Just the way I treated him

Well I enjoyed writing it even if you didn’t enjoy reading it, although I hope you did and I hope you will return to read more of my thoughts.

Robert M Petrie ©